Mostly overcast today

And so is the sky over my piece of Central Florida.

I’m in one of those moods in which I’m processing stuff, mostly below the surface, so I am not depressed. I’m disappointed by some of the recent events of my life, and in a few people in my life.

I’m also saddened by people who are unhappy and yet frozen in place because they are scared of losing the good things they have. I guess I’ve been there. It hurts too because I’d love to help them through it. But, maybe that’s almost like having the fox guard the henhouse.

I guess I’m thinking about my one huge romantic regret. The guy who could have been my first boyfriend, a guy named, Carl, who was really into me. I’d never received so much attention from a guy and he just scared the shit out of me. So I froze and did nothing even though inside I really was drawn to him. We would have been a great couple. But, oh well, I was an idiot and let it pass and he moved on.

I think today and this evening I’m just going to let the thoughts and feelings swirl around while I do something mundane like getting back to clearing up some paper clutter.

The sky got bluer. I hope that’s a good omen.

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