I just can’t get this man out of my head, or my heart. It’s a hopeless situation having feelings for someone who isn’t really available.
It’s hard to let go when my intuition tells me the feelings are mutual and the current relationship is one in which fostering any closeness is next to impossible. Reading between the lines isn’t effective. It leaves too many uncertainties and possible misunderstandings, and I deserve better.
It’s also hard because I know it could be a fun transformational relationship. I’m pretty sure the sex would be mind blowing.
Most days I don’t let this grip me so tightly. For some reason today I can’t let go. Most days I maintain a philosophical attitude of, if it’s meant to work out it will. I’ve thought about this man every day for a year and a half. It’s a hard habit to break.
I have to get busy doing things to fix my life. I started investigating online counseling since I have no car.
I just have to get over it.