…pretty hard tonight. I’ll be ok. I just needed to express that. It’s mostly his loss but, it is mine too.
We all need to realize that our own insecurities about love and being desired can end up hurting the one we want because we might be so wrapped up in our own insecurity that we fail to see that the person we desire is just as scared.
It’s really fucked up.
Real communication needs to happen.
Sykeology 
I’m so very sorry that you’re hurting and not feeling well mentally and I do hope you feel better really soon and that everything works out for the best for you because you absolutely deserve it.
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Thanks, I will. The times I express the hurt is just me healing. Like I said at the end: real communication is needed. That includes communication with yourself and reflection. I hurt for what could have been. I think he’s one of those guys who is supremely confident in his academic and livelihood skills and doubts his own desirability just as much as I doubt mine.
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