It’s another Monday. Another wait to start my shift at Wally World. Another ride into work early with my roommate because my car is still broken. I think my mechanic is still in Jamaica. This has gotten so old. Over three months.

I seriously have to make some life changes. I need to write more and find ways to give myself the joy that will help me open up some opportunities. I’ve found that when I am working on things I love and when I am on the path I want to be on that the Universe sends me good luck and good things.

I have to keep writing, even if I am not real happy with what I am writing. I have to keep going-moving forward.  I want to break the cycle of meaningless-but-necessary jobs. Working paycheck to paycheck is not a fun way to live. I know millions of people can relate to that. There is almost no time to do the things that I love. The few (usually two) days I have off are slated for household chores. In my case I sleep a lot. Depression. It runs in my family. Actually, I have bipolar two disorder. I am medicated. I like my pills. If it weren’t for them I’d feel worse. Also, I am lucky it’s bipolar two and not one. Bipolar one can look like schizophrenia. No hallucinations here. Thank you very much.

Even in my fifties I still have not abandoned my dream of earning a living doing something that I love. I have an idea for a couple of online businesses I want to have: bumper stickers and candles. I used to make candles when I was a kid. My mom, the bipolar gene donor, used to jovially complain that I was ruining all her good pots. I loved making a mess in her kitchen. As for the stickers, I have pages of slogans I have written. Most of them goofy. Some of them political. Hint: I despise that orange thing in office right now. What I need now is some cash to start these things and maybe get a decent used car. A Volkswagen because that fairy is undependable.

This is a street in Key West near the hotel I stayed in in June 2005. I took the photo. Yeah, I like the color blue. It would look good on my new Tiguan. Are you listening VW Fairy?