Been busy….procrastinating.

Free associating.

Depressed. Confused. Hurt. Angry. Disappointed. Hungry for answers and information. Wishing for an apology that will probably never arrive. Mind being blown. Upheaval. Scared. Need money. Want a better way to earn my living. New happy home. Physical Therapy. Physical Graffiti. Black Dog. 1970’s. Retirement. What happened to high school? I miss the 90’s. I miss Oregon. I miss Tampa and St. Pete. I miss being near my dearest friends. Orlando has been cruel to me. It won’t even let me finish the second BA it let me start. It’s a tease. Just like the men I’ve attracted here. I’m just done. I want someone who is unafraid to cry his eyes out on my shoulder. Tears are strength. It takes courage to let them roll down your cheeks. Teal eyes. Brown eyes. I wish I could see properly through my eyes. I can’t wait until the skin on my right leg heals. It’s hurting now. Want to sleep normally. Have a lot to do. Overwhelmed. Need a respite. Need a miracle. Need a shrink. Need rent money. Need new pots and dirt to re-pot my plants. Want hot water on my sore back. Mt. Tabor Park. Ft. De Soto. Mt. Hood. Bend. Key West. Park City. Yellowstone. Grand Tetons. Arizona. Montana. California. Maine. Forest Park. NW 21st. Passage Way. Seminole. Port Charlotte. Peachland. W Burnside. Multnomah. Pinellas. Orange. USF. U of O. Chocolate. Coffee. Scones. Need to move. My body and my soul. Words. Finished. For now.

I guess I just like X-rays.