It’s 2:58 am EDT. I’m getting ready to crash.

I’ve been thinking a lot about trying to bring joy into my life; right now, I have none. I have to start spending a few minutes each day writing. Right now (that’s kind of a pun—right??—my life consists of working in a retail setting which has ground me down, or shopping for necessities, or hanging out in this dumpy apartment I hate.

Like DOES attract like. I’ve seen it in action, in my own life, during times when I had joy, because I was in school. School makes me feel optimistic and hopeful. I don’t have that now because I have no money.

I have to find a way to navigate out of this quagmire.