Yeah, nothing is new. I went back and re-read some old blog posts and realized how little my life has improved. Still working paycheck to paycheck. Still have shitty work schedules in retail that are unpredictable and can be day, night, or mid-shifts, all mixed, of course. Retail takes itself way too damn seriously. No, seriously.

I’m stuck. Re-reading kind of depressed me, but it also enlightened me; I need to try harder. I need to, want to improve my life. I need a better plan and belief in myself.

I dream of the life in which I am getting up in the morning no later than 9:30, eating breakfast, doing a workout, taking a little shower and sitting down in front of my computer with my massive antique dining table as a desk and typing away.

I dream of a regular schedule, one in which I am not sitting on the edge of my bed at 2:52 am typing a quickie blog post on my iPhone (although it’s waaaay easier on Apple than on Android. You have no idea).

Not exactly sure how I’m going to execute this life change, but I know I have a better plan than when I got my right leg replaced. Also, I’m deciding to do this relatively soon, before the social security checks start (those are months away even after filing) because I actually have paid into the short term disability fund. If I just retire, before getting the knee fixed, that money would be wasted. The checks won’t be as big as my sucky paychecks now, but it’s something. I’ll do another Go Fund Me and try for a home based job.

Nighty-night.